This week's song connection!

First, I bought "Mr. Monster" the sequel to Dan Well's debut novel, "I Am Not A Serial Killer" today and I'm SO excited to read it. If you haven't read the first one, you're missing out! Go buy it people!

How funny! This week's song connection is another song by Lifehouse! What? Are they stalking me for song lyrics or something?

"All In" by Lifehouse

All night, staring at the ceiling
counting the minutes I've been feeling
this way, so far away and so alone
But you know it's alright
I came to my senses
letting go of my defenses
There's no way I'm giving up this time.

Yea you know Im right here
I'm not losing you this time.

And I'm all in, nothing left to hide
I've fallen harder than a landslide
I spent a week away from you last night
And now, I'm calling out your name
Even if I lose the game
I'm all in, I'm all in tonight
Yea I'm all in, I'm all in for life.

There is no taking back what we've got
It's too strong we've had each other's back for too long
There's no breaking up this time.
And you know it's OK
I came to my senses
letting go of my defenses
There's no way I'm giving up this time.

And I'm all in, nothing left to hide
I've fallen harder than a landslide
I spent a week away from you last night
And now, I'm calling out your name
Even if I lose the game
I'm all in, I'm all in tonight
Yea I'm all in, I'm all in for life.

And now, I'm calling out your name
Even if I lose the game
I'm all in, I'm all in tonight
Yea I'm all in, I'm all in for life.

Chorus repeat...

This song really hits home with me, especially with the way the last month as gone for me. I'm turning over a new leaf, at least I'm trying to, and it started with me throwing everything I had out there and letting the chips fall where they may. Though, this isn't a game I'm gonna lose, I'm all in for life!

Class has started!

My first Literature class at National University started today. For the next four weeks, I'll be studying fiction, poetry, and drama. I'm excited to get back into studying. I seem to be able to write more when I'm busy. When I have too much time, there is always so many other things to do, DARN YOU DEXTER!,,LOL

My other problem is that I have too many stories going on in my head. I have 5, count them, 5 different folders on my desktop. 5 different story lines to work on. I can't seem to decide which one is going to get my full attention yet.

So I need to make the decision to just pick the one with the loudest characters and write their story. Then I can move on to the next loudest. No wonder I can't sleep lately. Too many people screaming at me in my head!

Keep it real!
Kris

Broken

I love how music can fully express emotion. Being a music lover, I often turn to music and song lyrics to help me through the rough times, and even the happy times as well.  I'm also a writer that MUST have music going in the background. One of my favorite things to do when I need to wind down or do a mental download and reboot the internal hardrive is listen to music. Whether I'm taking a bath by candlelight or sitting on the couch in a dark living room, I will put on the ipod and listen to whatever playlist I've created for whatever mood I'm in at the time.
I love when I can find a song that becomes a "theme song" for the moment in time.

Today's song connection is one of my favorite songs by Lifehouse, "Broken"

The broken clock is a comfort
It helps me sleep tonight
Maybe it can't stop tomorrow
From stealing all my time

I am here still waiting
I still have my doubts
I am damaged at best
Like you've already figured out.

I'm falling apart
I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart
that's still beating
In the pain, there is healing
In your name, I find meaning
So, I'm holding on, I'm holding on, I'm holding on
I'm barely holding on to you.

The broken locks were a warning
You got inside my head
I tried my best to be guarded
I'm an open book instead

And I still see your reflection
Inside of my eyes
That are looking for purpose
There still looking for life

I'm falling apart
I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart
that's still beating
In the pain, is there healing
In your name, I find meaning
So, I'm holding on, I'm holding on, I'm holding on
I'm barely holding on to you.

I'm hanging on another day
Just to see what you will throw my way
I'm hanging on to the words you say
You said that I will, Will be OK

The broken lights on the freeway
Left me here alone
I may have lost my way now
Haven't forgotten my way home

I'm falling apart
I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart
that's still beating
In the pain, there is healing
In your name, I find meaning
So, I'm holding on, I'm holding on, I'm holding on
I'm barely holding on to you.

Though we all have days where we feel we are barely hanging on, and we are left all alone, it is those times when we have to remember HE is there to carry us. HE is permanent and will never let go!

I have exercised the demons! This house is...almost clear!

I've been a bit absent from my blog lately, and I apologize to my followers. Hopefully I haven't lost you guys to some other amazing blog out there in blogger land.

Over the last few weeks, I have been making room in my overstuffed brain! I took the long overdue opportunity to kick out some of the old skeletons taking up space and collecting dust in the back of my mind.
It is really surprising how much weight those soul-sucking leeches are and when you are finally able to put them out, you begin to feel like you can walk on air.

I'm beginning a new journey in self-discovery and finding out who I really am. I have broken the chains that have kept me from moving forward and left me stuck, spinning my wheels in place. I have shed the bonds that for so long have stopped me from discovering my potential, and reaching my goals and my dreams.

I still have a long road ahead of me. Those negative behaviors I learned will be hard to change, but I am confident that with the help of my loving and supportive friends and family, I will be able to conquer those deeply rooted demons of self-doubt and self-hatred and replaced them with positive thoughts and beliefs.

I've walked the road for too long thinking I was all alone with no one there to hold my hand. Living in my own personal hell in my own self-inflicted darkness, beaten down by the broken promises and negative influences I didn't see coming until I was caught in their clutches, thrown in to the deep dark corner. Now, I have finally mustered the courage to throw open the drapes and let in the cleansing light and burned the ties that were binding.

I am ready and willing to follow my path and find what I was put here to do. The difference this time is that I actually feel like I can do whatever I put my mind to, with hard work and determination, and of course with my Heavenly Father by my side.

Prayerfully Yours,
Kris

WHOA! It's been awhile

Hello,

I'm so sorry I haven't been able to write lately. Life sometimes throws unexpected curve balls right at your head, knocking you to the ground. But I'm up, brushing the dirt of my jeans, and feeling like I can do anything. I haven't felt this "light" in awhile.....

SO.....since I haven't written anything since my last post, I don't have alot to update you on.
I'm hoping to get going again soon. The stories aren't going to finish themselves.. LOL

Well N-E-Wayz....I'll check back in later and update you on my Crazy Writing Thing....

Love Always,
Kris